September 3, 2009

• Aghhh!

  I am, if you can't tell by my less than articulate title, incredibly frustrated with myself right now.

  So I'm here in this new state starting this PhD thing, which by the way is going well and I like it and I hope I'll be able to do a lot of good work and such while I'm here...and all that jazz, but  I'm here and I should be on top of things and all scholarly and what not but all I am is distracted.

  I have a crush on a guy here, and it's ruining my life (look, I'm so far regressing I'm collapsing this situation into a disaster like I used to do when I was 17!).

  I'm not going to spend much valued time going into the sordid details of my irritating and embarrassing apparent obsession with this person (who is very nice and knows I exist, but it's not that kind of party as far as I know). The most annoying part, apart from the fact that I'm already sort of slacking on school work, is the fact that I'm still not ready to not be single. That doesn't make any sense! There are so many exclamation points in this entry!

  All I know is that this emotion, while marginally pleasurable, is death on wheels right now. Make it stop. Please.

  • 9:11 pm
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