November 24, 2008
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Breathe
Ahhh. I've finally got some time to breathe. Just a little. I plan on taking a nice warm shower, doing some light grading, then watching one of the very overdue DVD's sitting on my TV. I'm sitting here on my bed, laptop in my lap (ahh that's why they call it that), still wearing what I've been wearing since 8am this morning while teaching. It was a relatively easy day. I sat and listened to research paper presentations, spaced out a bit, pen in hand, as some of my students spoke. I was busy compiling a "To Do" list. I have been all week. Thinking about the things that need wrapping up before the end of the semester.
Thinking about how quickly some things can change. I'm almost amused at how quickly winter got here. It isn't officially winter yet, but there are bright red holly berries scattered and blooming across campus, and I've already seen the season's first snow, a light dusting of feathery snow, like powdered sugar on a pastry. Just yesterday I was trying to figure out how many more times I could make it to the beach before it got cold. Now I'm wearing my black leather gloves almost every day. Quick and fast change is.
You look up and you're someone else entirely, and you wonder how it happened. How you could have missed it. You see yourself everyday afterall. Listen to yourself chatter incessantly about the cost of gas, or the boredom that is Victorian novel class. And yet you don't pay more than cursory attention to the things that are happening. To the person you're becoming. And then voila! You don't quite think and feel the ways you used to, and you know it. And a part of you smiles at that, at the grown up wearing your body staring back at you from the mirror. But a tiny part of you frowns, because there's a wrinkle in that grown up looking body. A dent. A little thing that is new, or maybe only more noticeable now that you're looking and evaluating. A little scar that, if you're not mistaken, might be growing bigger and bigger if left unchecked. And you look at it, and frown some more, then pull your sleeve down over it to hide it away.
Yes, change is quick and fast, and catches us off guard more often than not. I 'best' be prepared for more.
Comments (3)
Ha! Try having kids, my dear... things change at light speed then; and a wrinkle or a sign of aging is the least of your worries!
I am about to send my oldest child off to college next Fall, yet I feel like I just left college myself just yesterday! My daughter is 13, and starting to look more and more like a young lady, not a little girl. Yes, things change super-quickly; you just have to enjoy each moment to its fullest, honey. Because the moments sure do fly by; but enough of them add up to MEMORIES, and those are pure treasures.
Yeah sometimes you have to remember to stop and smell the roses. I feel like time is an illusion sometimes.
Happy Thanksgiving.
@Shirlann - I think the things that having kids will do to me all the time. I can't wait..lol. I do so look forward to the memories. Thank you for this!
@vanedave - Time is an illusion, but we can make it look the way we want it to
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