November 19, 2008

• Unrelated things

  Ever since I gave access to my blog to a friend of mine I've been trying to think of something else to post about, since my caterpillar escapades are now over (occasionally when I come home I look around furtively hoping that it's not hanging out by the door snuggling against some wall and waiting to be let in).

  But I got nothing. I mean I could talk about the patterns I feel my life is falling into as of late, particularly the one where I wake up feeling tired, head to wherever it is I'm meant to be with work I've finished right on time, and head home again to stay up late and barely finish work, finally going to bed waay past my bedtime. And repeat. I really do feel like a little hamster running through the days, making it all work somehow, but looking back on it all and thinking I wish they'd gone differently some how. At least in terms of getting more sleep.

  I'm also aware though that since this is my last semester at school, once the semester is over in about 4 weeks I'll be sitting around staring at my computer wondering what to do with my life. I mean, I do that now, but I won't have homework and grading to distract me. No distractions are bad. Idle hands are the devil's...ummm..things...tools? Uhh. I'm still tired.

  I could list off the things that are making me slightly anxious these days (PhD applications that need finishing, deciding if I want to be slaving away in school for another 4-7 years, relationships, my consistent lack of breakfast and the hunger that ensues, moving out of my apartment in 2 months and having nowhere to move to since my loser sister has co-opted my mother's place in NJ, passing my M.A. exam, snow) but there's only so much I can say about any of them.

  Instead I'm just writing about a variety of unrelated things. Like the fact that my department Christmas party was canceled and now I have nothing to get dressed up for. I might just show up on campus one day in a dress and lipstick. Or the fact that I hate getting emails about store discounts because even though I have no expendable cash to speak of I'm highly tempted to go out and buy a shiny new pair of boots on sale at Aldo's for 50% off with a purchase of $75 (after forking over my unborn children). And the fact that maybe I have a shopping problem. I could list a whole lot more random, embarrassing and telling things about myself, but I'll stop here because I want you all to like me.

  Who wants to volunteer to make me breakfast?

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